a lot of my posts are written in advance, given that I work a full time job, am crazy busy, and like to keep a regular posting schedule. I'd love to be able to write every day, but that's just not the case. these posts are so nice because as I've said before, they feel spur of the moment and spontaneous.
unfortunately, this was an extremely rough week with pervasive violence and sadness. this is the first time I've had a chance to write about it here and I feel a little late on the topic. the night of the falcon heights shooting, I tossed and turned. I had dreams of violence. I awoke with so much sadness and held back tears throughout the day. I always joke that my eye holes are too small because I cry pretty easily, like there's not enough room to hold them in. if you find yourself in a similar situation, one of my friends posted this article on how to cope in times of trauma.
I am overwhelmed by notions of racism or oppression, I just cannot understand hatred and unfairness toward people for no reason other than skin color, sex, gender, wealth, etc. it is wrong and it is disgusting. I mourn for the families affected by baton rouge, falcon heights, and dallas. I am so saddened for these people who all, so unfairly, were robbed of their lives. dallas is my city and I can't imagine the pain they are feeling right now. there is too much collateral damage.
you can and should be both #blacklivesmatter and #backtheblue. we are already too divided as a society, this is a time where we need to come together. because I cannot solve these worldly problems, I have simply taken to reflecting on my own actions. I can be kinder, I can be less quick to judge, I can be more patient with people, I can be more giving, I can be more forgiving. what can you be?
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